Thank You -4
Yesterday, went to the Mount and corrected the translation of the press
release on the new organization at the Archdiocese of Ekm.The Cardinal went to
the Abp's house day before yesterday and
he is staying there.The news channel began reporting and by 3.30 ,all the
channels began to report.The two aux.s are suspended from being aux.s.The Synod
is given more involvement.
Welcome and happy news for the Cardinal.He suffered a lot but he remained
calm and cool.God bless him.Let there be peace and calm in the hearts of the
rebellious priests.
Today, I read in the Gospel the parable of the wedding guests who rejected
the invitation to the wedding banquet.In the end, strangers and wayfarers were
invited.The one without the wedding garment was thrown out.It is a lession for
all of us.What should be our wedding garment?It should be my repentance.I have
to keep the spirit of repentance and ask the Lord constanly for
forgivness.There is no way I can reorganize the past of my life. The only way
open for us and me is to ask the Lord for forgiveness.We are all fallible human
beings.There is no one who is perfect.That is why Jesus insists on
forgiveness.Whether we are priests or the religiou, we are weak and fragile
human beings.We carry in our hearts the
failures and sins of our life.We have to offer them to the Lord.Depend totally
on the mercy of Jesus.Live under his blessing and mercy.Trust in him totally.
Lord, thank you for your mercy and love.
June 28-Friday
All the papers came out with the news of the new arrangement at the Ekm
diocese.Now the channel discussions on the arrangments made by the Vatican. The
rebel priests are becoming active. They have the aud,Bps now on their side.They
will make use of their presence.
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Fr.Cyriac Koottummel---his funeral at the Nazreth Church.Went for the
funeral mass.I reached the church after the homily. Felt sorry for the passing
away of Fr.Koottummel.I did not get much time to talk with him during our
lives.I should have spent more time with the preists.Today I saw Fr. Vayalil standing
on the side but I did not acknoweldge his presence.If I had waited a few more
minutes, I could have recognized a few more priests.There should be a change in
my attitudes.My time is also getting shorter.Lord, help me to change myself.I
have to feel confident and strong.My confidence comes from my attachment to Jesus.
July 6-Saturday
At home in Ekm.My catract surgery was on June 29th.It was over
within 20 minutes.I had the laser treat ment and then the insertion of the
lens.But then five days of complete rest were prescribed.Stayed at Johnachan
and Leelamma house and Johnachan put
drops in my eyes very regularly at the precribed timings. Yesterday, at my
visit with the doctor Laksmi,I was told that everything was perect and I could
resume my duties freely.I am told to meet the doctor after 15 days around 4p.m.
Thank you Lord, for everything.I can read and see everything –very sharply.The
letters look deep dark; earlier it was hazy yellow.
I have no more A to talk to or share my thoughts.It was a passing away that
was very sudden.May the Lord protect her and give her eternal joy.Lord, bless
her.She was looking forward to eternal bliss with the Lord.I am sure she is
enjoying that bliss now.Our sins are very small when they are compared with the overwhelming mercy of God.
Juy 6th Saturday
Going to Laikad,Chy for the mass for the Jubilee of Daylu's parents.This
morning, I took my bath---first aftr the surgery. Did go for a walk on the roof
top.Read the papers without any difficulty.Thank you Lord, for this
blessing.Earlier these pages looked yellowish but now they are deep dark.Thank
you Lord for the blessing.
Within the last few days, lost many
friends,Fr.Chiramel,Fr.Thurthumaly,Fr.Koottummel.All very good people.Of
course, with Koottummel, my conversations were very sparse but had a good
admiration for him.Lord, we know that your call comes at any time.I have to get
prepared for everything.There is no special time.
My time will be spent with the Lord in prayers and reflections.
The room is tidied up.The adjacent room is also cleared.We will put an AC
there so that I can invite private vistors to my room.We can have discussions
in the adjacent room.
Your mercy has no limits.I have to immerse myself in the ocean of yur love
and mercy.Psalms are good in inspirng one to praise the Lord.
July 7,Sunday
Yesterday, I was informed by Manoj that the wife of Prof.SL Thomas passed
away and that I should be present at the funeral.He called me this morning and I told him that I would be coming
toorrow for the funeral.I was thinking of going to Kalamasserry tomorrow but
will go there later after the funeral.
I will just speak about the love of Jesus for all of us and about the need
to stick with Jesus.There is nothing else to be said.What I have to say is
about the love of Jesus.That is all.All kinds of round about speeches are no
more needed.Just be plain and simple.Love the Lord with all our heart.Pray to
him constantly.Nothing else can give us peace and joy.Whatever I can give to
others, I have to give. I have to be strong in the expression of my love or
Jesus.
There are statements coming from the Ekm priests and press reviews of their
discussions.Lord, thank you for your blessings.
July 8,Monday.
Went to Chy for the funeral.Gave the homily. Returned to Alleppey after
meeting Marymma and speaking to Sancta. Went to Thathampally and had lunch at
Lizikutty's house.Went to Kalamasserry from there.Met Prof.Philip.He did not
say anything about the meeting on the Higher Education meeting.It was Dr.Nanda
Gopal who briefed me about it.
Always bad news about the Ekm Archdiocese.People show their aversion.What
can be done.There is no forgiveness .All arrogance and hatred.Bringing the
Church into shame.
Lord, thank you for giving me the grace to deliver the homily in Malayalam
without any problem.
I referred to Billy Graham's comment on the words of the good thief.
Thank you,Lord for giving the gift of my eye-sight.
July 10,wednesday
Yesterday wen to the Mount in the evening for the montly
recollection.Fr.Melvettom mentioned Balam and Balak in his reflections.I read
this morning the whole chapter in Numbers on Balam's prophecy.
Capt.Cyriac is taking charge of the meeting.It is Ok.I don't have the staff
to do the work.He can do it.
I sent Biju to the Insurance office to take the application for
reimbursement and gave him a letter of authorization to make changes.
Yesterday, translated a statement of the preists of Ekm at the request of
the Cardinal.He looks tired and is at the end of his wits.All the steps that
are taken bring negative results.The priests are getting more support because
of the actions taken on the Aux.Bps.All are unwarranted steps, highly
provocative.
Feel sad for him. Actions are taken very suddently and without a broader
thinking.
I will grade the papers of the students today.
July 12,Friday
Will be going to the Mount.Will spend the time reading the document on
Education.Will offer all my cooperation for the success of th emeeting.
On 27th, I have the memorial mass for Fr.Thuruthmaly.
I have to go and come back early.
Nothing else is to be done.Just read the Bible and pray hard and long.The
Lord is my life.He has given me life back again through the surgery.I can read
and write.What a blessing.
July 13,Saturday
Tomorrow Johnachan and Leelamma are leaving for the States.Santhu had a
daugher born two days ago.
God bless them.I am managing with my eyes surgery, with drops applied to my
eyes every day.
In today's Gospel meditation, I read the prayer of Jesus at Gethsemany.I
have to pray continuously as Jesus has asked the apostles to pray.TheLord has
given me all that I need.I have to thank him and offer my heart and soul to
him.Lord, thank you for your love.Now I can see everything clearly.
Went to the Mount.Read some parts of the Draft on Education.
Had lunch there.The Cardinal was there.Did not have much interaction.
Went to Johnachan and Leelamma's house. Prayed for their safe journey.God
bless them.
I have to spend more time in prayers. I have nothing else to do.Only my
Lord is my help.Thank you Jesus for this vision.I have to read the Bible ,pray
and praise the Lord.
There was one person with whom I could share my thoughts.Now, she is
gone.She was aupposed to live longer because of her family history and
health.But everything was over within no time.Lord, bless her.Not a day passed
without sharing the events of the day with her.A big vacuum in life.Now , there
is no one to talk to.
July 14,Sunday
Spoke to Jogy,Josh and Sajan.All are doing OK.Sajan spoke about the new
house and Deepa spoke about Alka's new
friend who is a Marthomite.Paul is very slow about finishing his studies.
I should not be worried about their lives.I have to think of asking for
forgiveness in my life.I am the one who is more base.I have fallen into
atrocious failures.Lord,have mercy one me.There is nothing I can do.It is
beyond any repair.They are my own failures.
I miss A.When she was alive, I could talk to her and share verything with
her.Thought life will go on like this for a longr time.But that is changed.It
is the same with all.All the famous people have passed away.All the dreams and
plans have disapperead with their death.That is true of my life.I have to find
my happiness in the Lord.Nothing else can giv eme happiness.In todya's Gospel,
in Mark, in response to a man's question with regard to eternal salvation
,Jesus spoke about the need to love the Lord with all one's heart and to love
the neighbor as oneself.That is all what I have to think about.Jesus never
asked about one's sins.Jesus just forgives them their sins.I have to find
strength in the forgivenss of Jesus.He is the one who gives me joy nad peace.A
is gone forever.I won't be able to get
her advice or sharing.Nor will it be possible for me to get another person to
share my life.With A , my sharing was total.God, bless her.In the last few days of her life,
it was difficult to share.She had more ailments and difficulties.She could share
them with me.But all that sharing is over.I have to depend on the Lord.Just
pray and praise and leave everything to him.
Monday,July 15
It is raining now.Johnachan left last night for the States. Mathaichan came
here in the evening with Allen.
In the Gospel, Jesus is talking to the Samaritan woman about the living
water and the village people beleiving in him .He stayed in the village for two
days.My Jesus,you are the living water for me.Keep me in your love.
Protect me.Faith in you is enough for the living water to flow into my
life.Whatever that prevents the flow of the living water is to be
avoided.Strong and ardent faith in Jesus as the Saviour of my life is what
creates the flow of the living water.
Worked with Captain to find more resource persons for the conference.
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